Endless Riancy | 長樂未央

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从勃太那里摸来的问卷虽然她并没有点我.....（.........
  ↑话说托你的福我常常在访问来源看到“早晨勃口怎么办”

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换了BGM，hikki的first love

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看了一部法國電影。
劇情可以說是相當不出彩，當時看得我一直覺得哇唬這簡直是李碧華那《青蛇》的翻版。鳩占鵲巢，始亂終棄，還真幾乎是每一個愛情故事的主題啊。
但是重點是那個演員，誒喲喂看得我大半夜的嗷嗷叫。
Sophie Marceau，大名鼎鼎啦，法蘭西玫瑰。當時看到的時候覺得特別眼熟，後來想起來是在Brave Heart裡見過的法國王妃=v=
還有那個男演員他太不出名了，他不出名到爬wiki也只找到一小段介紹....
Lambert Wilson (born August 3, 1958) is a French actor.
所以一個這麼英式的名字居然是個法國人太微妙了....不過還是好美你們都怎麼長的喲TUT。
點開來有截圖，原諒他只是個RMVB
啊對了這部片子叫做《Marquise》（……），中文譯名有路易十四的情婦和玛奇丝。路易十四那個太不靠譜了跟路易十四屁的關係喲。不過也正因為是這位太陽王的時代，才得以看到號稱法國最奢華糜爛的宮廷生活=v=

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高強度訓練了兩周之後突然放了一周的假放的我腳都軟了....
每天還是蹲在寢室裡睡覺，上網，偶爾看一下英語（....）。
某天早上起來洗臉覺得真是一臉死灰行將就木的鬼樣媽媽救救我TAT
後來終於下定決心跑到北京市郊60km的燕都博物館去看一看，結果在外面連走了三站地都沒找到我要坐的那路車真是太杯具了.....總之後來去了植物園。
夏天去植物園我真不是“有病”可以形容的！
但是還是拍了一百多張圖是怎樣我不明白我自己...

1、王耀
2、路德維希
3、弗朗西斯
4、基爾伯特
5、娜塔莉亞
6、羅德裡赫
7、伊莉莎白
8、伊萬
9、亞瑟
10、本田菊
11、丁馬克
12、貝瓦爾德

 

01、你有看过6羅德裡赫/11丁馬克的同人吗？你会想看吗？

啊？啊啊？……歷史上倒是有普奧聯軍x大老爺&helli...

Major Depressive Disorder
A major depressive episode is characterized by either feelings of sadness or a loss of interest that persists for at least two weeks and causes difficulties in an individual's functioning at work, school, home, or in relationships with friends or family. Other common symptoms that might be present include:

A low mood for most of the day
Feelings of guilt
Feelings of worthlessness
Feeling nervous or anxious
Feeling slow and sluggish
Changes in appetite/weight loss or gain
Irritability or agitation
Trouble sleeping or sleeping too much
Decreased libido
Having trouble with concentration or memory
Loss of energy or feeling fatigued
Unexplained physical symptoms
Frequently experiencing breakdowns or crying
Thoughts of suicide or thoughts or wishes of death

DSM-IV-TR criteria
The latest version of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV-TR), the widely-used American Psychiatric Association guide for clinicians seeking to diagnose mental illnesses, defines Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) as: "a pervasive pattern of instability of interpersonal relationships, self-image and affects, as well as marked impulsivity, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts."[17] BPD is classed on "Axis II" as an underlying pervasive or personality condition, rather than "Axis I" for more circumscribed mental disorders. A DSM diagnosis of BPD requires any five out of nine listed criteria to be present for a significant period of time. There are thus 256 different combinations of symptoms that could result in a diagnosis. The criteria are:[3]

Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment. [Not including suicidal or self-injuring behavior covered in Criterion 5]
A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation.
Identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self.
Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., promiscuous sex, eating disorders, binge eating, substance abuse, reckless driving). [Again, not including suicidal or self-injuring behavior covered in Criterion 5]
Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, threats or self-injuring behavior such as cutting, interfering with the healing of scars (excoriation) or picking at oneself.
Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days).
Chronic feelings of emptiness
Inappropriate anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights).
Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation, delusions or severe dissociative symptoms

 

 

I cannot bear it any more though I have been restrainting it for such a long time.
I am fed up with all this fucking things.
I need a psychologist to end it or I will end it myself.

I am as wrong as wrong can be.
I have thought that I could handle the situation but it was, definitely, a stupid illusion.

I do not know what is going on.
Please do not abandon me.

其實題目跟內容沒關係。

……好吧其實有一點？
因為腸痙攣所以不想學習就貼一下之前拍的圖算了之類的……
今早三點半起來練了方陣之後就不太舒服（躺平

之前一直被詛咒（？）“只要帶著相機就靠不到舷窗，不帶相機就一定靠舷窗”，所以一直沒拍到云（苦澀臉
這次拿了相機又拿到20F的票就開心地照了=v=
而且因為20D20E都沒有人不怕被當成興...

新BGM和新播放器❤

我不得不說那個上面的字跟這首BGM她一點都不配對嗎（死人臉
為什麼會這麼怨婦我他媽也好想知道啊。

Apocalyptica - Faraway Vol. 2 lyrics
Artist: Apocalyptica
Album: Faraway Vol. 2
Year: 2003
Title: Faraway Vol. 2   

...

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十四天之後，又把豆瓣上的常居地改成了北京。
無聊閒逛的時候曾經看到有趣的同城活動，可惜已經沒辦法去了。
帶回北京的東西有衣服，辣椒醬，肉（……），死活刷不出個屁的P3000和小電。
另外要單獨列出來的東西是某天和亂一起買的衣服，包括一件是同家店的看上去就像情侶裝；諳陪我跑了三層裕豐買到的耳飾，我特別小氣的沒有分一隻給她，下次一起補。
終於在母上的喋喋不休下說出了自己有多么討厭北京和自己的同學。
她說你總要碰...

如果可以的話，希望一輩子留在你們身邊。
成為你們的支柱和驕傲，正如你們是我的那樣。

我眷戀的並不是這個城市，而是有你們在的地方。
（所以你們一個寒假留在長沙一個暑假留在香港是要幹什麼呀即可修）

從此無心愛良夜，任他明月下西樓。

我這樣愛著你們。

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每天睡十二個小時，還是困死我了。
（別在這麼無所謂的地方切題

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考慮到上次雄心壯志地扛了一堆書回來卻什麽都沒看的情況，這次只帶了一本英文小說回來。
....結果還是什麽都沒看☆
完全沒有學習動力什麽的.....我一直就是個特別懶散的人。
討厭這樣無所事事的自己，一開始認真幹活的時候.....就困了（躺平
期末考試考得很糟，尤其是專業課，全部是7和8開頭，語法還69讓我去死嘛！
不過作為...